So...this Thanksgiving Jeremy and I are going to my parents house.  Although we have been engaged for three months my parents are still not aware of this fact. Why?  Because in April I had to distance myself from my mother when she caused me to have a horrific mental/emotional breakdown. She finally admitted that she was wrong just recently and we have smoothed everything over and reached an understanding for the most part.  So now Jeremy and I agree that it's time for them to hear the big news.  I'm excited, but still have butterflies thinking about it. I get so flustered about the prospect of sharing my life with this man who has entirely captured me mind, body and spirit.  I'm going to be anxious this Thursday heh.  While on the subject, I really want to dedicate a whole entry to the tale of our engagement, and I might even start documenting the road to marriage as we embark on this journey together <3

Hope realized

I don't subscribe to superstitious thinking but I just realized that the wish I made on 11-11-11, two years ago today, has finally come true! I hope the same can be said for others <3

Tell me...

...was it all in my head?

I met with my mother last night after months of unflinching detachment.  It went...almost too well.  Both her and my father seemed very eager to make amends and I just hope they are sincere in their actions.  All my life they seemed to gaslight me and sweep things under the rug just to artificially bring ephemeral peace until they explode yet again and repeat the process all over.  It could have something to do with why I never seem to accept when things are going well, but instead assume the worst is yet to come just around the corner.

Well I'll hopefully have some positive progress in this particular matter.  I have far more happy entries to catch up on in the meantime!

Best wishes to all.

Here goes...well, a lot.

Today I am going home and seeing my mother for the first time in 7 months.  Let's hope this goes well.